No need to read, only if you're interested.
Otherwise just adore my cosy coat^^
I got this suede coat some weeks ago but last weekend it was the right weather to wear it.
I feel so unhappy when i'm thinking about winter. It's getting colder every day. I'm really no winter person and right now i envy everyone who's living in a warm climate. If this applies to YOU, you can consider yourself lucky!
I'm afraid of winter cause, you know - most days are very cold and grey and windy, days with snow and sunshine are okay - but every year i get depressive. At the most after Christmas.
Negative thoughts go so far i get migraine, medications doesn't help cause the doctor says it's a psychological problem.
After my dad died in 2010 (after 5 years of illness) everything went worse.
Before this i thought i had the perfect life, loads of fun, many good friends, a nice job and everything was fine in my world. I went out every weekend and spent my money for vacations not less than 4 times a year.
But when the illness of my dad began all turned. I started going out less, my so called "friends" had less understanding, i changed my job cause i couldn't stand stress and long working days when i had to take care of my dad. Every year he stayed several times in hospitals, always for about 2-4 weeks and we, my family and i, always prayed that he will get better. In October 2010 when he was in hospital again, he decided that he can't stand the pain anymore and decided not to eat, not to drink only to take morphine in the heaviest amount the doctors are allowed to give.
From this day on 5 days were left. The day before his decision he asked me to bring him ice cream. That was the last day he was responsive.
He had a bad typeof chronic obstructive pulmonary disease(COPD).
I broke up with people who let me alone that time, nearly all.
I was always there for them when they needed me, my help, my advice...
Is it that hard to find a loyal friend?
That's what i think about much this dark time of the year.
Suede / fake fur coat: Thrifted
Shirt: H&M (old)
Thermal tights: Primark